caroline teng actually read the form wrongly. sigh. how could she. lol. oh wells. she shall be one of the latest for the 1st time in like.. the yr. usually, she's the first.she'd be the one who actually reminds me that I have to collect forms. heeheex)
hahaha
oh wells we had this big thing in class today. and im hearing all sides of it. sigh. as grace says it, im like the middle person. i dunno if i should like.. do somehting about it. then if i would rite.. from which perspective should i help? as welfare? or as a friend? oh man.. i hate instances like this.. sigh.. im also one of the ppl who were eating in class. heheh. naughtynaughty me.. hahhaa. sigh. i guess i shall jz leave everything in His hand la. i guess.. yea. hmm. i'll just... see first? if there's a necessity, then i'll do smt.

yayy!!!
my maths test i got highest in the class!! yayyyy... yayyyyy.. yayyyyy......
hahahahhah! sigh. ohwells. like my new blogskin? i like.. x)
lipin say she dun like the butterflies.. but thats wad i like about it! hahahha. oh wells. weird guys are starting to tok to me. its like.. im suddenly visible to the guys in church. eek. i rather stay invisible. eek. hahahhaha.

7 days left!! im so desperate for time! and my mum is maing me study until 11 then canot study liao.. im missing 1 precious hour of undisturbed study! they come back , either they bother me, or my bro come and disturb me. sigh. so annoying. wadever la. i still havent chose my sub combi. i guess im gonna take chem.. duh.. and phyysics? i guess that's the only thing i can score in actually bio can. but i failed the mid years. i studied only for wad. 3 days? and like.. only half got in
now. i should go study. yep. i jz took my sleeping time to blog and stuff. hahha. illegally online. x) hahahha.

EOYs are really near. i have so much to do. before and after. and the most important is SLEEP! that is veyr important. and after this post, i shall do just that x)
life's kinda boring nowadays. feeling the stress now that the exams are 2 weeks away. I DUN UNDERSTAND LS!! howhowhwo. somebody teach me!! i cant get lpin to teach cz ill get alot of misunderstandings. aiya. i shall jz lok for ms yeo. then i have to study ggeog. i realise all the things are not insidemy head. need to study somemore. so annoying. i cant stand it. sigh. wad i find more annoying are guys. [guys. dun get offended.] im jz tryng to generalise. x)
oh wells. school is getting on my nerves. everything is like.. stressing you. they give you loads of homework. and make you stay back in schhool. bleh. like.. where am i suppose to find the time?? weird thinking of Mg.
oh wells. i keep saying i'll change the blogskin. i jz cannot find the right one. and they dun appear nice enough. hehheh. now must go and study. maths. and geog. and LS. i understood more today!x) its all staring to make sense

i closed my eyes. to rest from a headache.
and wad i saw was a man. a man wih a knive. and the knife came and stabbed. right through my heart. i felt the pain. the hurt. and the fear. fear of leaving this world and meeting Him. i prayed right after that. i felt so afraid. i felt the fear. i really didnt knwo wad to do. i was so scared. that this would happen. in real llife. i was so afraid to leave all i have worked for. leave all my friends and family behind. as i move on. i really dont want to. its so scary. so scary. i really didnt know wad to do. i felt so lost. i didnt know how to react. i was so. lost.

i smsed caro after i was feeling a little bit. and i guess i freaked her out. hahaha. so yea. this was wad i was refering to. i think you can link it to everything in the sms? yea? hahaha. i guess this is a momentary thing. its over la. as long as im sure of my faith, i guess i'll be fine. i should trust in Him and belive that he;d be there for me? yes. i belive so. it was just that moment. that moment. i felt everything. tumble on me. i guess i have to trust Him to guide me on my life. yea. thank you caro. x)

heys.
the last post was when i was so pissed off with someone. oh wells. its settled already. so i shant dwell so much about it.
so many things happened in these few days. too many. no time jz no time to update. there are times i just have an urge to on the computer, and rant and rant and rant all day long there on my other blog. this blog needs a change. a new lbogskin. jz that i look at all the blogskins, and dn find somehitng that i like. even this was a sort of last resort cz the others didnt work very nicely. hee. oh wells. nowadays i find that i have like.. gotten addicted by jap comics. its so funny and exagerated! so not like real life. i feeel as if i have jz stepped into life. and i want to go back to being ignorant. i want to go back and be innocent. i want to go back and know nothing about the world out there. suddenly, i see. i see many people being inconiderate. i see people being irriating. i see nice people. i see many non-believers. i feel as if like.. if i know them, its my responsibility to tell them about jesus. ive seen so many people acting like that i feel as if i have to be part of it. its the influence i guess. and i guess its good. i guess. hee


ok that up there sounds emo. hmm. maybe im getting abit too emo. haha! these 4 days, i feel like ive been slacking too much. even now!i need to get back to work! i need to start studying! although i have already. jz not enough! i think i need someone to come along and push me! PUSH. PUSH! HAHAH. sound like im in labour. chey! no way man! ahhaha.
my sis's friends are over to do work. u noe that feeling? of like.. ebing lost when u have strangers atsying in ur house. bleh. its kinda weird. like.. u dunno wad to do. i want to be like at home. and act at home. but like.. there are guest. whom i dunt know. oh wells. haha. gtg now byebey

omg. ive never ever been so ultra pissed off before la. not even with my friends ok.
you. are so super annoying! u htink u're so high up and mighty. u think that im just such a girl. u think that im just who u think i am. you think. you think. you said you'll wait. and i only ask you to wait for 1.5 hours cz im studying.trying to study. and you sent me 6 smses ranting away. wth lah! yes. i rejected you. i did. u wana know why? cz i cant stand ur atttitude. you stupid high and mighty attitude. others must wait for you. you cant wait. u think u're smart. u think u know everything/ sometimes i dont eben know wads going on in ur head. u think u can mantain a relationship jz with sms-es. you're wrong! so wrong! you dont even have half the idea wad having a relationship is. even i dont know. cz i've never been in one. so kcuf offff!!! omg. you ask me for a chance. just one. silently, i gave you one. but a testing one. and you didnt treasure it. i started dao-ing you. blur ass, you didnt even see. you didnt even know. stupid. asshole. you're a D. i cannot stand Ds and i bet ur D is high and ultra high. can even be matched with mine. sigh. you suck la. stupid. go away. shut up.